The Savior Wants to Forgive

The Savior Wants to Forgive

I got arrested
for two burglaries I had committed to pay for
my addiction to heroin, and I ended up spending five
years in the Arizona state prison system. And I hadn’t even been
out for a few days, and I’d started drinking
and smoking pot again. And soon enough I
got into trouble, and they sent me back in. And it became important for me
to figure out where I was going and what I was
doing with my life. I started to believe that
God was trying to help me because I had these unmistakable
feelings that were like God was reaching out, but I
couldn’t understand why. And I finally got
down on my knees, and it was the first
time that I had prayed with any real sincerity
in probably 11, 12 years. And I said, “God, I
believe that You’re there, and I believe that
You’re trying to help me. What I don’t understand is why. Why would You want to help me? I’m a convict, I’m an
addict, I’m an alcoholic, and I haven’t tried
to follow You. Why would You want to help me?” I got an answer to that
prayer in a feeling I had in here and
words that I actually heard: “Mark, it’s
because I love you.” I dated this girl–I was at
BYU–for five or six months. And the day I asked
her to marry me was the day she decided
to break up with me. And I had a dentist’s
appointment that week, and they did a root canal. And the dentist gave me a
prescription for pain pills, and immediately I had a
warning bell go off in my head. Before I’d even gone and
gotten a refill of it, I had reversed the
prescription and I was taking four to six
every one to two hours. And not only did
I relapse again; I ended up living on the streets
and getting into the worst addiction I’ve ever
been involved with. I got involved with a robbery. When I went in, I told this guy,
“Hey, I just want your money. I’m not going to hurt you.” I just kept my hand in
my pocket, and I left. Hiding in the bushes
down the road, watching the cop
cars go by and stuff, I realized what an absolute
phony and fraud and hypocrite I was. I saw this fellow’s
reaction in my mind’s eye, and that look of fear
that was in his eyes; how could I have done that
to another human being? I felt like I was about the
biggest failure on the earth because God had saved
my life once before and I had thrown it away. I figured out how to get the
safety off the gun and a bullet into the chamber, and all
the sudden the whole world went silent; the
sirens going by, the cars, everything else
just totally went silent. And I heard these
words: “I’m still here.” And I said, “How can You be? After all I’ve done, after
all You’ve done for me, how can You still be there?” But I knew whose voice it was. And I knew that it was real. I finally walked
out of those bushes and to the cops that
were out on the street. I walked up to them
and I said, “I’m the one you’re looking for.” I ended up spending nine
years in the prison system. But you know, nine
years was a small price to pay to have a life
given back to me again, because I came to find a
loving God who had been with me every step of the
way, and the times that I didn’t think
He was there were only because I wasn’t looking. I was able to get out of
prison about 16 years ago now. There is a woman I met. We’re just about ready to
celebrate our 15th wedding anniversary, and our
son, who we named Ammon, was born on Christmas
morning seven years ago. [VOICE OF ELDER CARDON]
The Lord knows what we are facing, that
we all sin and “come short of the glory of
God” again and again. He “knoweth the
weakness of man and how to succor them who are tempted.” He teaches us to
“pray always that [we] enter not into temptation.” We are told to “cry
unto him for mercy; for he is mighty to save.” He commands us to
repent and to forgive. And although
repentance is not easy, as we strive with all our
hearts to obey His gospel, He gives this
promise: “Verily I say unto you, notwithstanding
[your] sins, my bowels are filled with
compassion towards [you]. I will not utterly cast you
off; and in the day of wrath I will remember mercy.” The Savior wants to forgive.

50 Replies to “The Savior Wants to Forgive”

  1. "I am still here." For those of you struggling, Heavenly Father never left. His love for you is never gone. The Lord wants you to come back to him! Do not be afraid to ask of repentance!

  2. God is always with you if you dont belive in him one day you will think and belive about him in your life or in a mistake and never forget this and you shall always belive and have mercy and forgive

  3. God is here for you guys……he loves you all….god wants to take you guys in his path….he wants you guys to do right things….good things….don't be afraid……….strong…be…brave..don't be afraid of god…..don't…..god wants everyone to follow him and courage him and go on gods path….OK hope everyone has a wonderful day ^^

  4. I'm lately struggling to learn a new language. I am still quiet around drama and other things but know I know I'm not alone. I have two people in my heart: My best friend and the Holy Ghost.

  5. I hope that one day comes when Jesus will rise again and everyone will be blessed with the terrestrial kingdom. By meaning everyone is nice

  6. I think the most impressive part of this is how a human being can understand fear is not what they want from somebody else but if not the happiness in the joy that you see in somebody else's eyes for them to be glad that you're there not to fear that you're in front of them and that is Jesus Christ wanting to forgive this person because this person wouldn't think twice to end his life but then in his loneliness he understood the fear and somebody's eyes towards him

  7. I literally watched this, moments before I started the repentance process. (Like literally minutes before meeting with my bishop)
    It gave me the boost I needed!
    You got this!
    The nerves building up to it are the worst, because that's the adversary screwing with your heart and mind!
    Stick it to satan! We can do this, because we are NEVER alone!

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