All along the way I had some mysteries in my life. There was just something wrong. I was blaming myself. By him having a child, I was his mistake. There is nothing in church laws, rules, and regulations that specifically mention what do you do when a priest has fathered a child. Your father has to reject you in the name of God. How could a calling from God be wrong? I would find a very dark place, and I would just start to cut myself. And every cut was the years of pain with him. Every time there’s a scandal, at least in recent years, it’s always treated as if it’s an isolated incident. I connected the dots. And I can tell you, there’s a systemic problem here. The Catholic church caused me to lose a dad. I will never get that back. Never.